haiz,at first thought won't be blogging anymore but in the end,i found this is the only place where i can throw all my emotions and thoughts. i'm beginning to feel that i fail to be a good person. a failure at things. why?? i like this girl but cannot tell her. even feel i'm not good enough for her. don't even have her number,how to go after her? even go after her,our status also so far apart. then my sister. maybe to her i'm not a good brother ba. i tried giving the best to her but sometimes i still feel left out. friends around me also beginning to leave me ba... i begin to feel lonely but who knows... maybe sooner or later,i'll just end up living alone,become Mr Lonely... Maybe before this happen,i should start to disappear and try to adapt life being alone...